you have completely faded

help me to remember

in that Colorado courthouse

eighteen years of age

I promised

I will love you forever

I will die your spouse

now I can’t recall your height

or even your scent

did you kiss me every morning

and every night before we slept

did I cook your favorite foods

was I really

always in a bad mood

I think I was a good wife

I cannot recall

this other life

help me to remember

my first love

did I tingle at your touch

how did we spend our days

did we like each other much

I know you wanted children

was it two or maybe three

children were not in my future

of that I was sure

but you’d make a great papi

your love was pure

my first love

I broke your heart

don’t leave me

was your only plea

but I wanted to be free

nevertheless

my first love

you’ll always be